I'd like to say that I burned out this fall when I made fruitcakes. But, the truth is, I just don't have any christmas spirit this year.
We never really decorate our home. Something of a combination of the busy season, having 6 cats hell bent on destruction, and being lazy. I don't even really like to dress up the office. I thought about getting a little tree for my co-worker's sake. But, haven't really found the energy.
My holiday this year will be spent shuttling between various homes . . . with varying levels of alcoholic imbibing.
I can't even come up with a christmas list of stuff I want to receive. Honestly, either I've got too much stuff or I just can't imagine wanting anything that badly I'd ask anyone else to spend their money on it.
Poor Phenom has been bugging me to give hints. But, honestly, no one can give me what I really want.
What I really want is that my friends I lost this year could be my friends again. But, that's impossible because the world has tilted and will never go back. And, most of all, I want the Old Woman to not be dying. I want her to be healthy and alert and not in pain and arguing politics and roaming the woods again. But, that's asking the world to stop spinning. Which isn't going to happen either.
Hopefully, I'll get over this pity party before I start to ruin everyone's holiday too.
1 comment:
Hugs.
I'm not feeling very Christmassy at the moment, either. I hope you at least get a chance to see the people that you love and enjoy spending some time with them.
Don't spend too much time with the ghosts of times past or future. Embrace what you can of the time and people around you now.
More hugs.
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